Monday, August 28, 2006

Where did you sleep last night

Here's some cool blogs to read:

Cat Hare (she's off of Surrey. Surrey people are cool)
Anna Hopkins (she's going to Holland. How exciting)
Nicola Abram (she blogs in lists. But they're good lists)
Mandy Morgan (rare but weighty[her blog not her])
Tom Price (he's in america)
Becci Brown (she lives down the road)

Sunday, August 27, 2006

Your sword! Your sword! My dagger

Anyone expecting this to be coherant...is going to be dissapointed.

There are times, when i realise that i don't know anything. Everything i believe about what God wants and is doing and that all my half baked ideas are just that. Or not even that. And these are times that my conquered but oh so active sinful nature loves to dwell on, to feed, to linger in...to have them take over my life. And there are times. There are times when i look at the cross. And i think about my Redeemer standing on the earth, about His irresitable grace, about how good and benevolent He is, about the people i've seen saved, about Reading, about the thousands of people groups without a sustainable witness. And, somehow, through the fog, it makes sense. And all my questions 'what about this' 'why didn't this happen?' 'my way's better really' just fade away like the morning mist. These times are like fresh air to me. Gethsemene and Calvary shine like beacons. Beacons of the Lord's great love for me, for the Father. And rememberace that that is all there is. In a very real sense, there is no life outside of Jesus Christ. The message of the cross saved me, and it's changing me. And that is very cool. And very humbling.

And man, do i need to trust in the Lord more. To gaze at Him, enjoy His presence to dance at His love for me, and His redemption worj on the cross. I can't wait to spend most of the next two weeks immersed in the Gospel, and then i can't wait to spend the rest of my life immersed in the Gospel. I remember thinking as i was finishing off my Bible studies for Relay 1 this week, that i didn't really know where God was taking my life (which wasn't altogether true, i can recognise the things on my heart, my passions, my gifts to an extent) but that as long as He and His word were at the centre of it i can't go far wrong.

So thats where i am right now.

Confused? Sure
Redeemeed? Absolutely
Determined? By the grace of God
Rejoicing? Oh yeh!

Christ died on a cross for me. His precious blood was shed. That is my rock. That must be my rock. What joy there is from faith in that.Jesus, mighty awsome holy Jesus is going before me to Guildford. Man, how amazing is the Gospel.
I actually love it!

So i guess no more blogging for a couple of weeks. I'm going to be an actual Relay worker. How weird. Weird sure. I am buzzing right now with the Gospel, with this book that's beside me. With Jesus, and how awesome, in the real sense of the word He is.

Hallelujah!

Wednesday, August 23, 2006

Naomi

Naomi was at cell tonight for the first time (it was my last RFC cell for the time being). She met Danutia at church in Edinburgh and mentioned she was moving to Reading, and Nu, like a good Fammer, mentioned how cool Reading Family Church is...and here she was.

Anyway, during the sung worship bit of cell she had a picture for me, which i think is pretty significant (not that when God speaks, it's ever anything but) and i want to record it so i don't forget it. So essentially from here on it this post is all for me, but...well, it is my blog!

'there's a roundabout, with lanes leading up to, and you need to be in the right lane to get to where you want to go. And you need to decide which lane you need to get in. You can always be in the wrong lane and change later to get to where you're going, but it gets very messy. So get in the right lane'

Lots to think about...

1967

The first time Kurt Cobain used heroin, he called Krist Novoselic, bass player in Nirvana to tell him about the experience. Krist warned him he was 'playing with dynamite'. Heroin appears (from my very rudimentary research) to be about the most physically addictive drug that there is. It really is like injecting dynamite into your veins, except it has the opposite effect, causing all the muscles in your body to relax, meaning eventual loss of consciousness, and your skin turning blue. Heroine is so addictive that addicts end up not being able to live without it, even though it's killing them. Even on the day he married the woman he loved, Kurt had to shoot up 'just a little bit, so i wouldn't get sick'.

I think sin is like heroin. All sin ever does is make us want to sin more. All it ever does it make us hungrier for more of it. Actually thats not all true, if it was then perhaps sin wouldn't be so bad. Except the Bible tells us that we can not serve two masters. There is no void or vacuum when it comes to what we set our mind upon. It is either spiritual or it's sin. So sin pulls away from the God of glory. It blurs the vision of the light of the knowledge of God in the face of Jesus Christ to an extent that we can't see it at all unless we're careful. Unless we fight it. It makes us want to serve it. It doesn't satisfy us, it only intensifies the longing in our heart for pleasure, and joy, and acceptance. It intesifies the problems that we have inside ourselves already, because we were not created for the fleeting joys of sin, we were created for a much deeper, more satisfying, longer lasting, glorious pleasure. And here is, i think, the key to fighting sin. And we must fight sin. The fight is evidence of our salvation, not the source of it, the evidence of it. If we're not fighting sin on an intenional, conscious level (this obviously won't be possible with all sin because not all sin is conscious) then we may not be saved.

So how do we fight? We fight fire with fire. We look at God's glorious promises in the Bible, and we fight with them. We believe that there are pleasure's forever at God's right hand and a fulness of joy in His presence. God is not a stoic, He's not merely ambivalent. He is a God of the fulness of pleasure. He is a God who is most glorified in us when we are most satisfied in Him. Not when we are trying to satisfy our desires with lust, or money, or fame, or popularity. Our deepest longings and our cravings for pleasure will not be solved by drugs or sex. They will be solved by knowing and embracing and delighting in all the God is for us in Jesus Christ. All that God has for us in Jesus Christ. In knowing and loving Christ as our God and as our Savior. For surely that is the reason we have been made. We can fight by prohibition and warning all we want, and God makes some serious promises about the eternity of those who succumb to sin. But we are created for joy, and that joy is to be found in Christ, so the best way to fight for that joy is to tell ourselves about it. That only the pure in heart will see God. That the faith that justifies is also the faith that sanctifies. That sanctification is an inevitable result of our salvation.

In the book 'Future Grace' John Piper says that 'sin is worse than satan'. Sin is the tool, the weapon, the means that satan uses to pull us toward him and away from God. Toward eternal destruction and away from eternal life. Sin is the way he does that. By sugar coating the horrors of a life of unrepentant sin to make it seem attractive, and good and desirable. If we lived with an all encompassing passion for the glory of God, then these promises would mean nothing to us. We would see through them in a second.

The power of sin has been defeated, once for all on the cross. When Jesus died as a ransom the precious blood He shed bought all the good things that we need to live. When He rose again He defeated satan, who is now like a wounded animal lashing out to see who he can get at before the end comes, as it surely will. We need to remember this. We need to embrace the poweful realitiy of the cross, because how will we escape if we neglct such a salvation? We won't escape. The fight against sin is easy in theory. The Holy Spirit has given us all the weapons we need to fight. The reason why it's hard is that when we stop sinning, it means that we stop sinning, and we like sinning, otherwise we wouldn't do it. We have to choose what is better. We have to live for the deferred gratification in Heaven. We have to carve the mighty, wonderful promises of God on our hearts, and remember that those who live according to the Spirit will surely live.

From the old etc etc

I've started watching old Neighbours on UK Gold. It's from four years ago, just before Michelle goes on a school trip to the USA (which, four years on she is yet to return from despite: her parents divorce, her older sisters wedding, her older brothers breakdown and the birth of her younger brother, you got to love neighbours sometimes), just after susan gets her memory back and drew died and just after max had turned up. It's all a bit weird, but very nice in some ways. It is, of course, a big fat waste of time.

Tonight is my last Cell at Reading Family Church. I've only been going to cell for about eight months, but its been great. It's so cool to be in an arena where there are so many wise people, so many different people, so many older people. It's great to gather round God's word, i've really really valued and grown from it. It's been cool to see a church work so so well with a CU, and to have been part of it. To be a member of a church which really values and loves it's students and in the same breath supports the CU at Reading Uni.

I lot of what i've been thinking about recently has been this old to new stuff. It's kind of funny. One part of me, quite a large part of me can't really bare the thought of leaving my church for a year. And the rest of me is really exicited about doing so. It'll be cool to go back there, and see how it's grown, see how it's changed, see the new office. It'll be cool to get involved in another church, and see how God want's me to serve there. Strange thing transition.

Monday, August 21, 2006

Spurgeon says

We don't need to change the gospel for postmodernity. (HT: Bish)

How right he is. How absurd it is that this Gospel, which has been saving by grace through faith since Abraham is so often subject to passing fads and trends. Why, why do we, do i so often water it down, miss bits out and try and make it sensitive to the ears of those listening. I know that for me, i was saved shortly after (like, minutes) i understood the Gospel properly for the first time. I love the Gospel. I love how poweful it is, that it's the wisdom of God, that justification by faith is effective for so many to be saved. No one will be saves apart from hearing the Gospel, we need to stick to it, live for it, die for it.

Sunday, August 20, 2006

Tick tock

Not long now...

Friday, August 18, 2006

Just posing the question

In Habakkuk, our eponymous hero cries out to God, wondering how He can let an ungodly nation conquer a not-very-godly-one. Habakkuk doesn't deny that Israel has fallen far, far from God's plan for it, but he still questions how God can punish it using a country even further from Him.

Are we sure this time is over? Do we think God has ceased to act in this way?

The UK is no a Christian country in anything but name. There are, of course, no 'Christian' countries except the City of Heaven, where all Christians claim their citizenship. A citizenship which is far more important and meaningful than our British citizenship. Do we think that 'the west' will defeat the threat it currently faces from Islamic Extremism? If so, why? Surely our only confidence it anything happening is God willing it. And if God willed the judgement of Israel in a not disimilar fashion, Israel being His covenental people, why do we think God would spare the UK? I honestly can't think of a reason. But then i guess it's not up to me to search the wisdom of God.

So what is our response to this? Well, we rejoice, we remember that our citizenship is in Heaven, that we owe nothing to our country, to patriotism, and that we await a Savior from there who will come. We rejoice knowing that God works all things together for the good of those who love Him, and that a Britian ruled by Islamic Fascism would fall under this category. We love our enemies. Living in one of the centres of the current Terror Scare this presents a particular challenge for me. I am ashamed to admit that as i walk around High Wycombe i find it all to easy to see an Asian dude and wonder 'are you in on it', 'are you on their side'. This is a terrible thing, and will eventually cripple a town already struggling with racial tension. We remember to pray for our brothers and sisters who already live in places like Saudi Arabia and Iran, as if we were there ourselves. We don't get too nostalgic about Britian at the moment, and remember that things are bad here for Christians already, but in the same breath thank God for the oppotunities to openly witness and make as much of this as we can.

I'm not trying to be sensationalist, or scare mongering. I'm just thinking.

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

1400 Guildford conversations


Things i like about The University of Surrey:

  • Chancellors. Very classy
  • Steak baguettes
  • The permanent kebab/burger place for after the union. Woo and indeed hoo
  • I can park there
  • 21 is more than 19
  • Elvis Pressley toilets
  • Yards instead of metres (that can't be true!)
  • Evangelistic Freshers Week
  • It kind of feels like home
  • I guess the people are ok too...

Monday, August 14, 2006

Ten scene points the winner

I think God is awesome.
Every other kind of judge criminals run away from. They do all they can to hide their guilt, to not be confronted with their judge going to any lengths to avoid him.
Jesus is more just than any judge we can imagine. More just than in our wildest dreams as i recently told an unbelieving friend. He is more personally affronted and offended by our sin and guilt than we can ever imagine. And yet is running away from Him a good idea. Not at all. The safest place in the universe is the closest we can get to God. He asks, nay, commands us to seek refuge and solace in Him, to hide in Him, to confess all to Him, to admit defeat and ask forgiveness. The safest place in the universe is with and in the One who could destroy us by His very presence. And yet in Him nothing in the universe is to be feared. Thats how amazing divine love and grace is.